Saturday, January 31, 2015

Moving right along

Hey DC where've you gone? Send someone to fetch us we're in Saskatchewan...

Okay, so, no, NOT actually Saskatchewan. But we ARE in receipt of orders. After all the long rigmarole with Alaska and waivers and medical and all that nonsense, things finally started happening.

To rewind (only just a bit), after the Kodiak orders were cancelled, I then had to submit a waiver request to stay near specialty care. As that was wending its way through the bureaucracy known as the Federal government, I was advised "Don't worry about the transfer - you're such a unique case and the detailer doesn't want to screw this up again, so you're going to be part of the bog-standard, NORMAL, regular rotation in 2015."

I wasn't holding my breath. Good thing.

Late November I finally heard, definitively, signed, sealed, delivered, copy IN HAND, my waiver was approved, complete with all the exact wording of the limitations. A day later I was e-mailed a list - "Pick from any of the above, your discretion, to whatever job fully complies with your waiver. Oh, and by the way, if your waiver can be met by either of these TWO jobs, that's what you're going to get."

So it wasn't really a pick list. And both available jobs would meet the waiver requirements. And one is MUCH more desirable over the other. E-mailed back and forth, Laura and I talked about it, trying to get the latest report date possible, and now, finally, here we are.

Going back to where it all began...mostly. In a job that's relatively close by. Going to an area with great schools, lots to do, and highly-spoken-of health care.

I'll spend the next 4 years...

As an instructor...

In Yorktown, VA.

The Coast Guard has a major training center there, it's where my career began. Boot Camp in Cape May, NJ, followed immediately by BM "A" School at TRACEN Yorktown. I will not be an "A" school instructor - that's not my billet, anyway. I'll be teaching other folks how to drive boats, coxswain school. Which, really, is what I've been doing the last 4 years as the Training Petty Officer in Washington, anyway.

There's a lot we're excited about. We're happy to stay close to my family, and closer to the beach. We're happy to be just 3 hours away from all of our incredibly close and important friends here in DC. We're happy that this job includes standing NO duty, so I'll be home every night (with the few rare exceptions where I'm teaching nighttime boat driving).

There are things to wrap up and take care of, and with any move there's always worries and concerns. Selling the house we're in is a big albatross around our necks. Finding housing down there is something else to be worked on (we're looking at the Williamsburg area to live). I don't have to report in until late April, so we've got time, but every passing day is a day closer to the move. But we'll get through this. Hell, we got through a brain tumor...

Just a quick follow-up to the last post... To be honest, I had long felt and agreed with the majority of y'all. To me, the most "appropriate" date to "celebrate" is February 4, the second surgery. That was the day I won, the day we beat Sylvia.

But what makes sense on paper isn't necessarily what the heart decides, or feels. We are in the middle of the anniversary. And with time, the feelings may fade. and my choice may come forth. And the 4th of February hasn't come yet, so we'll see how I feel on that date, too. But back last week on January 19th, the date of the first surgery...it hit me. It hit me pretty hard. I was at work all day, and just...out of it. I was distracted. The flood of emotions were there. At 9am as I was walking down to the boat for a mission, I couldn't help but think "I was on the table a year ago, getting my brain prodded..." It got so bad, while we were underway I had to pass the helm off to another guy onboard. I didn't say why, he didn't ask. But I was distracted, badly. I was in no place to be driving a 29' boat with 450hp and a belt-fed machine gun with 200 rounds and a Secret Service Agent onboard and just being...completely absent-minded.

So, we'll see how the 4th goes.

On the 3rd, I have my 1-year follow-up MRI. My next appointment with my neuro-doc is on the 17th. And until then, we just keep keepin' on.


Friday, January 16, 2015

Anniversaries

So an anniversary is rapidly approaching. In fact, really, today starts the anniversary period. And aside from it most obviously being the subject of this post, that really is the thought that I've been wondering. And I would like to pose it to y'all, dear readers. No, seriously, legitimately, PLEASE respond. I'm very curious to hear your thoughts - reply here, or on the link from the Book of Faces that likely brought you here...

What *would* you consider to be the anniversary of this whole...mess. We humans are big on commemorating things, and with very few, rare exceptions we do it down to a single date. A birthday, a wedding anniversary, a graduation date. Most of our religious holidays - though I am quick to note, those are the exceptions I can think of - holidays like Hannukah, Lent, or Ramadan.

I feel like with this being year #1, it's going to set the tone, and the tradition, for years to come. Because don't get me wrong - as scary and terrifying and horrific as it was, I aim to CELEBRATE what I survived. Not to say "Yay, I had a brain tumor," but to say "Yay, I *HAD* a brain tumor. I survived. I am still here, I am in this world. I BEAT THIS BITCH." And to remind myself of the outpouring of support - the friends from near and far that stood up, that jumped up, and helped.

And that means you. All of you. You all helped by being there, by caring, by sending notes and words of encouragement, by listening. By caring. You gave a damn, and that was noticed. And it mattered. And it helped. THAT is what I...we...choose to remember and celebrate.

So, uhm, yeah. Back to the question. What date would YOU pick? Which day makes the most sense? I don't really think today counts, it wouldn't be my choice, but the options are:

January 16: Acute onset of the symptoms
January 19: Went to the hospital, got told "something's wrong"
January 20: Diagnosed with brain tumor
January 21: Surgery #1
January 23: Discharge #1
January 30: Biopsy results
February 4: Surgery #2 and final
February 6: Discharge #2
February 19: Final clinic, final biopsy, cleared to enter the "post surgical care" phase and generally marked as, well, not 100% "CURED," but definitely stable.

And, just because I can, and because everyone could use more bright happy shiny stuff in their lives, here's a recent photo of the 3 most amazing people in my life. And as has been a recurrent theme of this blog they are, naturally, getting ready for snow. :P